I really just need to vent a little, because something really horrible happened to me and my father.
I'm not sure if most of you know, because I do try to stay positive online, it is like my escape from reality... Because the truth is my reality sucks... A lot.
About 2 months ago my dad had a major Cancer operation shortly after I lost my job, it was okay while he was in hospital, because I ou had to worry about myself for things like food, because the rest of my family are too busy making things harder on us then actually helping us (I am not exaggerating, my uncle called my dad a couple of days after his surgery to yell at him for making his life so hard), needless to say it seemed a lot more dificult at times then it should have been, I had to use the money I needed to fix the truck for things like food and petrol... And that didn't last too long either.
By the time dad had finally come out of hospital we where dead broke, and now he is crippled with Lympodima in his leg, chronic back pains and is unable to do so much as wipe his own ass... I am only 21 and now I am a full time nurse for my dad... But this I could deal with, however the people who are meant to be helping us, are just making things harder, it took months, a lot of stress, and a social worker to threaten Centerlink with court action to get any centerlink money, it is not much, we can life off it, food is very much appreciated after a month of starving, we are still waiting for my dad to be approved for disability.
Now here is the infuriating part, during this month where we had no money, was struggling to scrape up a couple of dollars to buy just something to eat (most days not even eating at all), we where meant to recieve some food and petrol vouchers from the Cancer Council, a charitable organisation, we rang them several times, they insisted the vouchers where sent, but we never saw them... Last week when I finally got paid my Carers pension we figured they where just not coming so accepted that we will never see them, however today while figuring out which number was which in my dads phone, we accidentally called them, so we asked them about the vouchers again... They told us that they had been used... Someone had stolen the vouchers... Vouchers from a Cancer charity, and Fucking Used Them! They stole them either from our letterbox, or the postman has taken them, but just to put the absolute cherry on this fucking cake, cancer council accused us of using the vouchers and trying to scam more money out of them!
I am really upset right now, I don't like to play victim but I feel like I have been seriously wronged, we don't actually need the vouchers any more since I did end up getting paid, however when we couldn't even afford to feed ourselves, someone stole from us the thing we needed for food... For the petrol it takes for me to drive my dad to the nurses twice every week.
It not just the vouchers, people just seem to keep wanting to make things as dificult as possible for us... But we are lucky in a few other ways, the nurse who we have to see twice a week is really kind and does worry about us, and we would have gotten no where with Centerlink if it wasn't for the hospital social worker backing us up, and to a degree, there is an ancestor of ours, it sometimes feels like she is looking out for us too since we found out about her, which is very nice because she has saved us $600AUD on a medical thing for my dad that he really needs, so things could still be worse, we are getting by, it's just finding out that something like this happened, in a time we really needed it, just makes me so angry, and sad that someone would steel vouchers from Cancer Council that where being sent to someone who really needs it.
Also to MarvelscaleMilotic
, I love you so much, you have been so good to me through all of this, I really needed your support and you where there to give it to me even when I was being very shut down and dificult, I am so lucky to have you in my life <3